We lost our unborn baby, then we found out it was twins.
Today is Christmas Day.
Friends and family that found out we lost our babies are making comments on how it’s extra hard miscarrying right in the middle of the holidays. For myself, It has been nice to be surrounded with friends and family and that my big kids can process this without having to go to school full of sorrow.
Sunday I miscarried baby #1 at the hospital.
Monday I miscarried baby #2 at the hospital. I feel so blessed to have caught them both
Tuesday, we finished our Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve
Today, we woke up Christmas morning and myself, my husband and my 4 kids didn’t rush down to the Christmas tree and rip open presents. We all blared worship music and glorified our Lord. I can’t believe that this miscarriage - so heartbreaking- could fill me with so much peace. I have so much peace about where our beautiful babies are, theyre perfect, they’re alive and eternal, they’re living in perfect love, and they’re waiting patiently for us. It will be a lifetime for me but I bet it feels like a 10 minute wait for our loved ones in heaven.
So I’m dedicating this blog to Oaklynn and Olive, my twins in heaven. I always knew I would have twins one day, and I decided about 5 years ago that when I had twin girls their names would be Oaklynn and Olive.
I hope my journey can be an encouragement to you.
The grief is so recent and so far it has come in waves. The hospital staff all kept making comments on how peaceful I am, “I know they’re in the best hands with our creator himself.” This is still a heavy burden but I am finding joy and peace in this loss even a sense of relief that they won’t ever know suffering.
Thank you, Jesus for welcoming them with open arms into your presence. Thank you, God for creating my little angels and that we will spend eternity together.
Friends and family that found out we lost our babies are making comments on how it’s extra hard miscarrying right in the middle of the holidays. For myself, It has been nice to be surrounded with friends and family and that my big kids can process this without having to go to school full of sorrow.
Sunday I miscarried baby #1 at the hospital.
Monday I miscarried baby #2 at the hospital. I feel so blessed to have caught them both
Tuesday, we finished our Christmas shopping on Christmas Eve
Today, we woke up Christmas morning and myself, my husband and my 4 kids didn’t rush down to the Christmas tree and rip open presents. We all blared worship music and glorified our Lord. I can’t believe that this miscarriage - so heartbreaking- could fill me with so much peace. I have so much peace about where our beautiful babies are, theyre perfect, they’re alive and eternal, they’re living in perfect love, and they’re waiting patiently for us. It will be a lifetime for me but I bet it feels like a 10 minute wait for our loved ones in heaven.
So I’m dedicating this blog to Oaklynn and Olive, my twins in heaven. I always knew I would have twins one day, and I decided about 5 years ago that when I had twin girls their names would be Oaklynn and Olive.
I hope my journey can be an encouragement to you.
The grief is so recent and so far it has come in waves. The hospital staff all kept making comments on how peaceful I am, “I know they’re in the best hands with our creator himself.” This is still a heavy burden but I am finding joy and peace in this loss even a sense of relief that they won’t ever know suffering.
Thank you, Jesus for welcoming them with open arms into your presence. Thank you, God for creating my little angels and that we will spend eternity together.
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